So lately I had been doing mindless surfing on the net, streaming through endless newsfeed on social networks, having a good laugh over pictures on tumblr and wasting precious time on the computer.

It wasn't a total waste of time I guess, it gave me some time to do some soul-searching, something I had never really done since long gone of my secondary school days where then I really had time to think and reflect.

I guess I had been living a life where on many occasion I choose to please others instead of pleasing myself. What happened to aspirations and dreams of my own? I guess society has it's way of manipulating someone,  an authority they have to be able to control one's route and path to determine one's future lest becomes an outcast. The few ways they do it is by mocking at your interest (peer pressure), through educating what you are supposed to be equipped with and only provide to the best facilities to only what they had mould you to be. Overall, you have no choice but to succumb to society. But without these prospects, what ever would a society become?

..and that's brings me to a discontinuation of my somewhat general paper paragraph.

Anyway I think I hadn't been upholding the key principle that I had been believing in my life to pull me through and kept me somewhat alive this phase, I'm still really so mentally tired. This is how weak my mental strength is and there is so much to improve on my priorities and discipline. Complacency has begun to sip in and no, I am not going to let this affect my life, again.

I hope I'll be able to prepare for the harsh terrain to behold and withstand this hailstorm I will encounter and at last, make it through with relief and comfort. I guess this aspect will not only please me but others around me.