It's 2.08am, just a while ago I had written the previous entry. I feel a sense of pleasantness, something I wouldn't feel in this wee hour of the night. I often feel dull and unsure at this time and insecurities will start creeping in and I would be so neurotic to the things around me, being irritable. But today, with the sounds of trains residing to the platforms and fast cars driving through the main road,  I feel peace, though with you(still) and academics at the back of my mind, I'm at ease, feeling the sense that I had already been improving step-by-step and knowing myself a little bit more each day, realizing what I had done right and wrong. As I type, I know obligations I have, tied tightly down with my academics and expectations, I am optimistic - not in a care-free frivolous manner, but in the way that I know what I have to uphold despite the many failures that are certain to come.

I thought I'll never say this but, I really thank God for the things I have right now. Life has a way of saying "hey it's okay" and perhaps "NOOO, you're going to die, you're so dead. Just die!" Blessing has it's way of disguising and the only way it will uncover itself is when you finish the race. But really? Isn't it all up to you to determine it?

One thing's for sure, God has a life planned out for me, but it's through my actions where I slowly unveil this planned life God has installed.